Therefore, as the Holy Spirit says: Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion, on the day of testing in the wilderness, for forty years. Therefore I was provoked to anger with that generation and said, “They always go astray in their hearts, and they have not known my ways.” Where your fathers tested me, tried me, and saw my works, so I swore in my anger, “They will not enter my rest.” Watch out, brothers and sisters, so that there won’t be in any of you an evil, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God. For we have become participants in Christ if we hold firmly until the end the reality that we had at the start. But encourage each other daily, while it is still called today, so that none of you is hardened by sin’s deception. -Hebrews 3:7-14
Today was the day. I was going to march into my supervisor’s office and hand in my letter of resignation. To preface, I do not want to quit. I love my job, but I am exhausted. Exhausted of trying to balance my career with marriage and motherhood. Exhausted of feeling like I have been here for three years, but am getting nowhere. Exhausted of pretending that I am okay… when in reality I am not okay.
In these verses, the author calls us to encourage each other daily. This is not easy, especially on those days when we feel like throwing in the towel. I did not quit my job, but I did complain. I complained knowing that there were others there who felt the same way I do. I chose to make them feel worse. That is what complaining does.
Complaining is a symptom of an unbelieving heart. The Israelites would complain that God, who delivered them from their slavery in Egypt, had set them free only to let them die in the wilderness. They continuously doubted his presence, provision, & protection. Their unbelief hardened their hearts against God. Consequently, they did not enter the promised land.
We all have moments when we feel exhausted & tempted to doubt the goodness of God’s plans for us.
“My eyes grow weary looking for what You have promised…” -Psalm 119:82
But what if, instead of complaining, we worshipped in our wilderness? Worship transcends our emotions. “Only in the act of praise & worship can a person learn to believe in the goodness and greatness of God.”
There is a popular quote that you have probably heard at some point in your life: “It’s not about the destination. It’s about the journey.” I disagree. It is about the destination. Do not lose sight of where you are going because of where you are now. Worship while you wander & you will get there! Complain and you will die in the wilderness.
The choice is yours.